Big Weekend Ahead!

Lots of good stuff going on this weekend! First, Saturday 4/26 will feature the virtual launch info session for Autism Empowerment's Neurodivergent Creators Collective (AE-NCC), which I wrote about in last week's blog post. It'll start at 2pm Pacific Time, and you can join via this Zoom link.

Then, on the morning of Sunday 4/27, we have the:

I will be there along with a few other representatives of Autism Empowerment from 8am-12pm, talking about all the cool stuff our organization is doing, like the aforementioned AE-NCC, Spectrum Life Magazine, Hold My Beer, and more. It will be at Oaks Park, 7805 SE Oaks Park Way, Portland OR 97202. Parking is $4, but entry to the park itself is free.

Then, after a nap, we will be holding a Supporter's Night fundraiser for Autism Empowerment at Lone Wolf Watering Hole in downtown Portland from 5pm-7pm! The event, which is co-sponsored by Takara Sushi (see this previous blog post) will feature music by DJ Jordan Nguyen as well as a showing of Hold My Beer (complete with a short speech and Q&A session by yours truly).

Admission is free and open to all (minors are not allowed inside the premises while alcoholic beverages are being consumed, but they can sit in an outside area next to the waterfront). Craft beer, cider, wine, and, of course, sushi will be available for sale. Lone Wolf Watering Hole is located at 3870 S River Pkwy, Portland OR 97239.

Hope to see you at one or all of these great events!

Calling All Neurodivergent Creators!

If you're a neurodivergent creator, I have great news! Autism Empowerment is rolling out a new program called the Neurodivergent Creators Collective (aka the "AE-NCC," because we love a good acronym), which will aim to provide workshops, mentorships, and opportunities for aspiring adults and older teens who are interested in creative and artistic fields like acting, screenwriting, filmmaking, podcasting, music, video game development, and more.

Sessions will be both in-person and online, so anyone can attend whether you're in the Vancouver, WA area or somewhere else around the world. Plus, you have the opportunity to help shape the future of the program by telling us what you're interested in learning more about! For more details and to fill out an interest survey, check out the program's official webpage here. And mark your calendars for our virtual launch information session on Saturday, April 26, at 2pm Pacific Time (the Zoom link is on the webpage).

Hope to see you there!

Anime Roundup

Well, hey, look, it's time for another Anime Roundup! And it's only been eight weeks since the last one!

(Warning: may contain spoilers)

Frieren: Beyond Journey's End

I love this show. I love the premise, which is basically: after the Demon King is defeated and the day is saved, now what?* Especially if you're an overpowered elven mage with a lifespan that can last thousands of years. And so, the story follows Frieren, the aforementioned elven mage, as she navigates what is essentially post-retirement for adventurers: searching for novelty spells, doing cleanup and maintenance work on statues and leftover monsters, taking on an apprentice, traveling to a resting place for souls to pay respects to her former party member who passed away, and eventually undergoing an exam for first-class-mage certification (which she only needs as a formality, as she's already way more powerful than any other mage in the entire world, with one exception).

There are occasional moments of suspense and conflict, but all of them (except for one big-boss-battle near the end) are swiftly resolved by Frieren's overwhelming magical abilities, and the majority of the show consists of her reminiscing about the past and doing everyday things with her apprentice Fern and eventually a warrior named Stark. And I love it. It shouldn't work, but it does. I also love that Frieren presents as autistic (there is some debate about this on the internet, but I totally think she does), and I love how, despite her immense power, she still gets stuck in mimics (in D&D terms, these are monsters that look like treasure chests). During the second mage exam, I think - spoiler alert - they should have tried defeating her replica by simply bringing one of the mimics they found earlier into the final chamber.

I also love how the show says that magic is a function of imagination and visualization. Did I mention that I love this show? The first 28-episode season ended perfectly, but - spoiler alert - an end card said that the journey will continue, and sure enough, I've heard there will be a new season coming in January 2026. Yatta (yay!)

* This is similar to I'm Quitting Heroing, but the execution is much different.

Sakamoto Days

The greatest hit man on the planet retires from the underworld to spend time with his family and run a mom-and-pop store (while gaining weight from eating too much instant ramen), but is still able to bust out his old skills when his past tries to catch up with him. What a fun premise! Just like with Frieren, I enjoy seeing these overpowered characters at the pinnacle of their professions totally dismantle their opponents without breaking a sweat, or batting an eye, or whatever cliche you want to use there. Do I really have to wait until July for the next season, Netflix? (Netflix: yes, Brian. Yes, you do.)

Mashle: Magic and Muscles

In a world (yes, you have to say it in that voice) where mostly everyone has some level of magical power, a boy with no magic whatsoever has to enroll in a magic school and become a top student in order to maintain his peaceful life with his adoptive father. It's a good thing, thanks to a life of intensive training and workouts, that he has enough physical strength to essentially mimic magical abilities (e.g., he flies a broom by paddling his legs really hard). It's kind of like Black Clover-meets-One Punch Man-meets Harry Potter, the latter of which this show is either really influenced by, or trying to parody, or both (probably both).

Magilumiere Magical Girls Inc.

In a world (yes, you have to say it in that voice) where "magical girl" is a real and respected profession and magical girl companies abound, a recent college grad goes job hunting and has no luck until she's hired by a magical girl startup firm. It's a fun and lighthearted take on the magical girl subgenre that subverts it in a 180-degree-different way than Madoka Magica, which I talked about in this prior Anime Roundup post (and continues to traumatize me to this very day). Looking forward to Season 2!

Look Back

Speaking of trauma...oof. This is a one-hour film (not a series) that follows the lives of two artists who meet as elementary school students and go on to become best friends and mangaka (manga creators). It's a beautiful, bittersweet story with a slight sci-fi element and a (mild spoiler alert) gut punch twist that will leave you scarred. Drop everything you're doing and watch this amazing film right now. I'll be here.

Did you watch it? Good. You're welcome.

Until next time!

Takara Sushi Fundraiser

If you're a sushi lover (like yours truly), I have great news! This month, the awesome and generous folks at Takara Sushi in Portland are donating 20% of their sales every Wednesday to Autism Empowerment!

I've had their sushi, and trust me, it's terrific. Also, the restaurant itself is a beautiful space right on the bank of the Willamette River. It's perfect for group outings, family dinners, date nights, or even solo dining! 

The first Wednesday of April has already come and gone, but you still have four more chances (the 9th, 16th, 23rd, and 30th) to experience a delicious lunch or dinner while supporting a great cause during Autism Acceptance Month. Takara Sushi is located at 1264 NW Naito Pkwy, Portland, OR, 97209.

Hope to see you there!

Mmm, sushi...

Battle Ground Film House

For those of you in the Vancouver/Portland area, I will be the featured guest speaker tonight at the bimonthly (every other month) meeting of the Battle Ground Film House group!

I'll be talking about - what else? - Hold My Beer, along with how I went from writing novels and playing music to making films in the first place.

The Battle Ground Film House is a free, open-to-everyone collective of independent filmmakers and anyone else with an interest in the film industry. There's a virtual component of it on Facebook, and also these in-person gatherings where you can meet and connect with others face-to-face. I've attended every one since they first started last May, and I can attest that they are well worth it. I've met a lot of awesome people who have since become great friends.

The meeting goes from 6:30pm until about 8pm, and is at the SixEight Church, 606 NE 1st Street, Battle Ground, WA 98604. Hope to see you there!

4-D, The Card Game: Status Update

You thought I forgot about the 4-D card game, didn't you?

Well, I didn't. The test deck is right there, on the table where I keep my wallet and car keys, reminding me of its existence every time I leave the house.

"Brian! Briiiiiiaaaaan! Produce me! Produce me now! You know you want to!"

Ahem. Anyway, in case YOU forgot about the 4-D card game, let me back up a bit and refresh your memories.

The game is a simple, War- or Hana Fuda-meets-Pokemon-type of game, with a few embellishments, that is meant to be played without having to think too much (the original inspiration for the game came when I once attempted to play a complex card game while drunk, which did not go very well at all).

The last status update about the game, which was designed to accompany the album of the same name, was back in (checks notes, gasps) holy cow, August of 2021. At the time, I said, "If all goes well, the card game will be released simultaneously with the music album in Summer 2022."

Ha! Ha ha! Ha ha ha ha ha!

Obviously, that did not happen.

But, like I said, it's still there, um...patiently awaiting its production.

What's preventing it? Well, the usual suspects: time and money. Or, more accurately, the lack thereof.

The game design itself is ready. And we have all the base concept artwork done. See below for a sample:

Now, we just need to pull it all together.

Maybe, since Hold My Beer is in what is hopefully a short, temporary holding pattern, we can finally give 4-D, the card game, the attention it deserves?

Perhaps. We shall see. Stay tuned!

P.S. I noticed that there seems to be a lot of interest in last week's post about my possibly being neurodivergent. Well, I went for my main assessment yesterday, and I should know the results in around three weeks or so. Rest assured, I'll let you all know what happens!

Um...What If I'M Neurodivergent??

I've begun to wonder recently, "what if I'M autistic/on the spectrum/neurodivergent?"

I mean, it would make sense. Both of my kids have been officially diagnosed. My dad is self-diagnosed and, as detailed in this past blog post, is probably as much of a slam dunk as a self-diagnosed autistic person can be.

I've wondered about this before, but only in passing. But the production of Hold My Beer has really brought it to the forefront.

It kind of started when several of our actors did this interview with The Columbian newspaper back in January. During that interview, Lydia Pearl Pentz, who plays the character Shannon in the film, said (I'm quoting the article), "A lot of people in this industry, especially directors, are people with autism. To be a director you really do have to dive into it so deeply."

I thought, "Wait a minute, does she think I'm autistic?" Because I never said I was. But maybe I presented that way during filming?

I mean, it would make sense. I have sensory issues: I can't stand the feeling of soap between my fingers, so whenever I wash my hands, I have to scrub for two to three minutes until the sensation is gone. I don't like the tags in the collars of T-shirts. Speaking of collars, I can't sleep in a shirt that has a tight collar, or even a "normal" collar, because it makes me feel like I'm choking (my dad is the same way). I don't like the feeling of lotion on my palms, so whenever I apply lotion to my hands (which I have to do during the winter, or my skin will dry out and crack), I put it on the back of my hands and then wipe my palms with tissue.

I have OCD-like tendencies: before I go to bed at night, I have to check the locks on my door by physically touching them several times, even though I can obviously see that they're locked. When I leave the house, I have to stare at the garage door for longer than necessary to be sure that it's closed. I'll double- and triple-check that my car door is closed and locked even though I just set the alarm.

I often repeat things I say out loud back to myself in my head right after I say them, a form of echolalia (a condition in which people repeat vocalizations, sometimes associated with autism) called palilalia.

I get hyper-focused on things that interest me, and I can and will talk about them (very enthusiastically, mind you) for a very long time, even when it's apparent that the listener is getting bored.

I'm very detail-oriented, and I keep multiple spreadsheets of the projects I'm working on; for example, Hold My Beer has over 30 spreadsheets. I even keep a spreadsheet of the episodes of my band's podcast.

I think in pictures, which came in handy while writing the Joel Suzuki series.

So after wondering and thinking about it some more, I asked Karen and John Krejcha, the founders of Autism Empowerment, what they thought. We've known each other for many years, and they said that they've felt for a long time that I might be neurodivergent, but didn't want to say anything because they weren't sure how I would respond!

After that, Karen sent me some online tests. I started by taking something called the Autism Spectrum Quotient test. I scored a 15, which generally means that I'm likely not autistic. I also took the RAADS test, which is designed to assess autistic traits in adults. I scored a 47, which again means that I'm likely not autistic.

Still, I couldn't shake the feeling that I'm neurodivergent, and that I've just adopted scripts for social situations and have learned how to mask so well that I appear neurotypical - even to myself.

I mean, it would make sense.

So I took another test that Karen sent me, the CAT-Q (Camouflaging Autistic Traits Questionnaire), which measures how much someone masks their autistic traits. A score over 100 indicates that the test-taker probably camouflages to the point where it can influence other test results.

I got a 108. The average score for confirmed autistic males is 109.64.

Well, then!

Based on that result, I decided that I would take the next step and get a formal assessment. Fortunately, I know someone who performs such assessments: Dr. Anson Service, a fellow Autism Empowerment board member (who is neurodivergent himself). I went for my initial intake appointment this past Tuesday and will be doing the formal assessment tests next week.

So we shall see. Whichever way this turns out, it will have been an interesting and enlightening journey of personal self-discovery. Stay tuned!